Saturday, August 18, 2012

18/08/2012

                                                   -THOUGHT OF THE DAY 18/08/2012-






life indeed throws u almost everywhere unexpected... goodness indeed generates equal badness from u...
in the end its all about how much stronger can u grow
and wiser can u make out of yourself...
after all 'yourself' is the greatest fear u can never escape
.. unless u master it thro whatever means.. let alone the outsiders :)

Monday, July 9, 2012

.. jaani najani euta bhraman ma lagi parchau hami....


JIndagiko anautho maya cha, euta falto anuvuti cha, sayad tesailey hola jindagileh sundartako parivasalainai sadhai prashna garirahaneycha.
Kunai sahar ghuma, ya kunai gaun, kunai thauko rahansahan awalokan gara, ya kunai manmohak drishyako maja lutney kosis, ti drishyaharuma, jiwan bina sundarta paripurti garney taranga kasari ubjinthyo hola?
Bibid ichya, akansha, sapana hunuta manavjatiko swavab nai ho, sadhai khulduli ra kutuhulta jagrit hunu, naulo kura ma ruchi hunu manis hunuko pratibimba nai.
Jigyasu vaekai karan, sundartako awalokan ko chahana harek manis ko aatma ma raheko huncha. Jiwanjagatko majja lutna tesaileh jaani najani euta bhraman ma lagi parchau hami.

Kohi hunchan yatri, jaslai ghumna, naya thau herna, naya rahansahan sikna asadhai manparcha, u dulcha bivinna thauharu, jaha-jaha usko mannmastiska leh ruchi dekaucha tehi janey ichya rakcha, tehi ko basindha hru bata kahilekai tyahako rahan sahan barey kura haru ni sikdacha. Tara u ta lamo safar ma niskeko, ajhai kati thau janucha, tesailey ushleh tyahako chyanik sundarta ani prakriti lai prathamikta diyekohuncha, tehi kurahru jasbata ushley ananda lutekachan. Ushley aparjhat ma dekhihaleka pida ko bahya awaran pani samjhela... tara ushley yi sabaikurahruko gahanta ma dubney samay bata banchit vayekohuncha...dubihaletani u ki tes thauko samagra stithi dhyan ma rakhi kunai bichardhara wa padhati bokeko euta byakhyakar banna pugcha ki ta tes thau ko sundarta dekhna sakney euta addhyankarta... tara sohi thau ma sangarsha gari.. tyahako aaganma hurkeko, tes thaulai aafno sarah jani, najani angali euta ghanista nata jodeko, tyahakai basindha.. jasley tyahako jiwan jiyeka huncha, tyahako ramro-naramro sabai rang ley afu rangiyeka huncha, ushaileh nai tes thauko sundartako parivasa jani-najani byabahar ma layeko huncha, tes thaulai jiwanta tulyauna ko nimitta, tes thaulai sundarta dinako nimmita, tes thauma aruni esta yatrihruko mann tanna ko nimitta, usley jaani-najani tyo sundarta jiyeko huncha, mahsoos gareko huncha, jiwanta tulyayekohuncha 

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I have a dream, a selfess dream,
Shall I recite it now or keep it till the time is wise?
What if the tide of tomorrow fails to wake me?
What if all i Did gets washed away by the shore?
What if tonight is the only night for the stars to shine for me?
And what if my dream no more stays?
What if it vanishes and I can't find a word to catch it?
But if i awake myself into a reality where I am living the dream.
The selfless dream I had built up.
No words would have to hold me!
But what if it dies down the memory lane?
What if tomorrow never wakes me up and what If i never knew?
What if my dream remains silent forever?
Like no one's dream that lost its dream.
What if that selfless dream remains selfless forever
in a silent corner where the echoes of sound are never received?

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

The Fragile Longing


Sometimes the law of day and night may prove to be wrong. The spell of seasons over time may not always provoke the circle of life. And sometimes the spring may forever be embraced and shower time with the supernatural ability to be evergreen. Then, the knowledge acquired through the aging of time, however great and ancient it may be yet may create a strong enigmatic sense of fear due to its paranormal perfection. This is when the seasons fail to give the way to Fall, the greed within a hungry heart longs to continuously stimulate life violating reality and underestimating the power of nature’s beauty. It is then that the soul and nature can not blend to reflect any bond of coexistence.
She seemed to appear like the softest of virgin snow, like an innocent angel’s soul untouched by any harshness and impurity. No one would ever know the bitter truth hidden within her following like her dark strong shadows. Neither would anyone know her fragile longing… The world would think of her as someone who wouldn’t have to dream about wishes as they had all been showered on her. But this wasn’t true, the inexperienced world knew very little…
She was beautiful but beautiful beyond the physical. Her beauty was highly magnetic, daring and breath taking. Anyone who saw her couldn’t resist taking their eyes off her; the thirst of wanting more of her would overgrow within them. To quench this thirst of desperation, they would fall into her trap from where it would be impossible to escape.
She would then use her prey to satisfy her own selfish hunger of blood, beauty and soul. She wouldn’t show mercy to anyone, men and women both had become her source of strength. She would often haunt for innocent women and murder their purity. She would suck their soul off and snatch their youthful beauty leaving the mortal bodies to decay with extreme struggle. It wasn’t something she chose to be, but it was the way she was and she had to do it for it was her religion, her ancestral pride and the secret behind her life that had survived through all the ages, yet managed to remain young and untamed by any grace or foe. Her sins would shower the beauty of freshness on her the voluptuous appearance she bore.
Nevertheless, she always had this sorrowful desire to escape from the world of the undead, from her own foul breath and from the sins she had to perform. She wanted to be like a normal girl with princess desires, with a heart that would beat with love for all those she cared about. She wanted to live and taste the flavours of ups and downs and experience the fruitful happiness which she could gain while struggling with desire of being perfect.  Tragically, she knew this would never come true.
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It was a bright full moon night; the sky was richly embroidered with shiny stars that faintly generated beauty in the darkness of night, the presence of the luminous bodies all around made the night calm and peaceful.                                                                                              
Almost all the surroundings seemed distinct as it wasn’t really the darkest of nights. The light was pale blue due to the conflict of the dark with the glows from the twinkling stars and the wild, cold moon high above.
The cursed pond surrounded by the giant bushes and trees gleamed and glistened merrily as the moonlight sprinkled itself everywhere in that place. It looked majestically beautiful and heavenly but horrendous and horrifying at the same time. There was a strong sense of an evil spirit around. It wasn’t something that could be described with mere words.
The crispy path improvised a sorrowful rhythm as she walked on it humming a sweet melancholy of her own life. The cold wind slithered through the blue bushes and the night leaves hissed almost silently. There was a faint sound of waterfall faraway where the cloudy fumes arose puffing and smoking.
The hoots of owls with their sharp eyes widely open, the howling of the wolves, flapping of the wings and the rhythmic drumming of rain drops all came together as though they were calling and responding to one another giving birth to a tempting symphony that conflicted with the melodies of goodness and evil.
She lifted her voice and hurried up her pace as she came near the pond. Her eyes lit with crystal droplets and her black hair danced away from her as the tempest swiftly passed by her. She seemed to be in extreme somber. Her silky linen gown was wrapped loosely around her revealing her flawless but fragile nakedness. Her cheekbones looked sunken and her eyes lifeless.
She was in extreme need of prey to quench her thirst for reliving. She breathed heavily resting near the pond and with a heavy sigh of relief she stood quiet all at once.
There was another merciful humming coming closer towards her. However, it wasn’t the humming similar to hers. It didn’t provoke any agony but instead the joy of living, smelling the fresh air, being touched by the first rays of the sunlight, of innocence and of youthfulness.
She smirked weakly because she knew she could soon be filling herself up once more with her soul, the little girl’s soul for whom she eagerly waits.
The little girl came in her sight. She looked unmistakably stunning and blissful. Her rosy lips, chubby cheeks, shiny big green eyes and long black hair made her look perfect and reflected her innocence. She looked perfect even in that simple frock she had worn. Everything was quiet as she came closer towards the pond. There were fireflies guiding her as she walked; the undead dying lady couldn’t art to heave a sigh or utter a word. Her eyes couldn’t resist the continuous flow of tears that ran down to die in her lips.
There had been a miracle; it was the little girl who had cast the spell. For the first time the undead lady could feel the sweetness of her melancholy song, the pain of living without a life, the hungry heart in want of feelings.                                                                            
She could see herself in that little girl. There wasn’t any more of the desire to live the unwanted life again, her selfishness had frowned and her evilness drowned in the pond. She felt that her departed soul dwelled in that little girl.
She felt the chain of evil that had captured her innocence, allowing the devil to grow within her. She felt the absence of real happiness and her plastic smile lacked life.  She finally realized how desperate her soul was to escape from this unwanted misery, to escape from her own visible expression that collided in vain with her inner innocence; the pain was reflected vainly in her frowning image as she glanced into the pond. Only she could see it, staring her back solemnly.
She slowly allowed her pain to die in the grace of wisdom. She smiled with tears glistening in her eyes and breathed the freshness for the first and the final time. Her corpse melted and flowed into the cursed pond who seemed to be delighted exchanging glances with the howling moon. Her eyes shut forever to escape the duty of performing sins.
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The little girl disappears with an uncanny smile.
The Princess of the Night falls forever that night but the cursed pond eagerly awaits the next full moon.



Wednesday, May 2, 2012

RECALLING CHILHOOD



A PIC OF THE SKY AT DUSK BY ONE OF MY FRIEND IN NEPAL.










back in nepal, star gazing from rooftop use to be one of my favourite activities lol... trying to pinpoint their names, their locations, their stories and myths.. asking countless questions about the moon and eagerly waiting for a shooting star.. and sumtyms seeing the hills surrounding the valley being covered with dense colourful clouds.. sumtyms making shapes like waterfall , colourful ones, similar to northern lights... they sky always seemed ever so COLOURFUL :')